i thought it was only a slight feeling
i don’t know since when it grew
it takes more than i thought
i always thought it will vanished soon or later
but how it supposed to when all i see have no end
endless road….
i do feel the joy, the light
but i do also know the pain
the more i get deeper the more i get hurt
how do i know if i never try?
i thought about a house
i really need a house
i kept blaming other for me not getting what other have
i kept insisting on not being the same like they did but in fact i am this small narrow minded person who even can’t think straight and be good and be better for self development
i kept asking why why why why
i kept fearing what will happen
i don’t know what to do……
i am afraid of dreaming,
in reality i sucks, dreaming is just dreaming
it won’t happen?
i’m sucks